Today I said goodbye to my Grannie.
The last time she would be physically present in any of our lives.
It was hard to whisper the final words, i didn't want to have to do it. It was too hard.
But i did, and knowing that it is all over gives me comfort.
Knowing that she is finally out of pain and put to rest makes me happy.
I cried a lot today, I couldn't speak properly through the mass of tears streaming down my face.
I looked out over the audience and saw the faces of some of the people whose lives Grannie had transformed.
Seeing the love they all showed for my family gave me strength.
I knew that Grannie was proud of me for having the courage to stand in front of these people and speak. To stand in front of these people and express my utmost admiration for my inspiration to life. For her.
I sang a beautiful song with my sister. For Good from Wicked. My voice got caught in my throat when i felt a deeper meaning to the words i was singing. I put them in perspective of the day. In view of my relationship with my Grannie.
Danielle and i held hands for the whole song. I could feel my trembling fingers held steady by her firm grasp. She kept me going. Filling in my notes where i could not. I couldn't have done it without her. <3 Family.
My loves, Courtney and Dylan came to give me support. THANK YOU. You have no idea how much that meant to me. <3
I am going to start 2010 from here. Make a new beginning. I am going to make this the best year yet. Cherish every moment and live life to the fullest.
Just like my Grannie did her whole life. <3
ILOVEYOU.forever.and.always.
My inspiration. My light.
xx
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