My Inspiration, My Light.

I love you Grannie.
Forever and always you will be my inspiration to live life to the fullest and be happy forever, no matter what life throws at me.
I think your time with us is almost up.
You will always be with us in spirit and in our hearts, but our time to hold you and you hold us are all but gone.
I will very dearly miss you and everything you are and have achieved to be in your life.
You have taught me so much and i really, truly do not want to say the final goodbye.
I prayed to God the other night wishing for your pain to stop.
I said if this means you leaving us, i will live to cope.
I just didn't think he would take you this soon.
The past few months i have learnt to live without seeing you everyday or the most part of the week,
I felt like i was overcoming the obstacle of living without you in my life, getting ready for the climax of your journey.
I was very mistaken to think it would be the same when you are gone.
I knew in the back of my mind that you were still there if i needed you.
But soon you wont be and i don't know what i will do with myself.
You mean so much to me.
Words will never do this feeling justice. I just know in my heart what i mean and when you're gone you will hopefully too.

I remember you used to always say,
'There is no such word as I Can't, It is always I'll Try'.
This small phrase helped Danielle and  I do some things we never thought we could.
Your guidance and your ability to give help, was our Saviour in disguise.
The things you have taught us, the stories you have shared, the memories you have passed on.
Never, ever forgotten.

I am learning Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata on the piano in dedication to you.
This along with Fur Elise and a few others, i remember as being your favourites.
Every time i hear Moonlight Sonata i cry because i think of you and the things you have overcome in your life.
You were a very strong woman to live through the things you did.
And a very strong women to have fought this as long as you have.
You asked the doctor for sleep. The pain was too much.
Now my Grannie, my inspiration, my light.
It is time for your last sleep,
Your eternal rest.
Your end.

I love you forever and always,
Remeber that.
xx