Car Windows.

Ive decided that life can be described as looking out a car window.
You sit there and as you whiz by the scenery, things come and go from your view.
But for everything that leaves, something new is definitely going to follow,
Something different from your last outlook and sometimes it will be surprising. Somethings can make you laugh and some make you sad..
But soon enough, these things will pass by your window, leaving room for new scenes to unfold.

Call it what ever you want

WOW, New Zealand was a blast!
Thursday, we flew in and drove to Tauranga to meet my family.
Friday, Uncle James and Auntie Liz got married Officially, :)
We went to the local court house to do all the boring shizz like the lawful vows etc, :)
Then to the chapel to run through the ceremony for tomorrow, AND then to Avalon to set up the reception hall,
OHMYgoodness, it tool us 6HOURS to set up the hall, It looked damn fine but, :)
Saturday, The big day, :)
Even though they officially got married yesterday, we all still class this as the wedding day,
At 4pm, We arrived at the church,
Danced down the aisle,
and had fun! :)
Dk and i Sung them At the beginning From Anastasia, (Y)
Then out to the garden for photos,

THENN, to Avalon for the reception, :)
Us 4 got to be ushers, How cool, (Y)

The time came around for the first dance, After a minute, Nigel and Tracy ran on and said they were doing it wrong, Then us 4 ran on and said that THEY were doing it wrong too, And then busted out in a dance we had prepared earlier, :)
We were the SHIZZZ, :)
I discovered this amazing energy drink called XS :)
WAYYYY better then the crap we got here,
Deff importing some for my next outting with the mates, aye. :)

Sunday was aiight, We cleaned up the reception hall, and then to Mt Maunganoui Hot pools for some relaxation time.... tackling each other to get the ball Jeremy brought.....Relaxing?.. :)
Monday we drove down to Lake rotoma and went for a ski and biscuit, :D
Stayed at a holiday house RIGHT ON THE LAKE (Y) for 2 nights,
Tuesday, Te Puia. Cultural shizz. Very cool! Then back to the holiday house and went for another biscuitt, SO MUCH FUN. The water was THEE flattest i have ever seen water, and it is fresh! Nothing could be better!!!
Its weird, They call bodies of fresh water lakes... and bodies of salt water harbourss. WEIRD KIWIS,




Wednesday was EPIC, Adrenalin rush to the MAX!
Zorbing and then to the Agro Adventures across the road for Jet boating and Swooping and then to the Luge in Rotoroua. (Y) (Y) (Y) (Y)

:D SOOO MUCH FUN! (Y)

I dont have any photos of the luge on the computer yet though... 

Then it was THURSDAY, MY BEEDAY! (Y)

Spent it shopping cuz dk and i wanted to get a few things cuz it is cheaper in nz... the exchage rate and all that... 

Had my FAVE, chinese for din dins (Y) yummo, 

Friday was a lazy day but OMFG, The night was friggin EPICALLY EPIC!

We went to Cornevil!!

Its this masssssive maze made in a corn field so its all these paths cut through the corn, (Y)

Every Friday night they have scary nights, 

All the characters from the scary movies are hiding in the maze and you go around in groups with a torch and they jump out from hiding in the corn and scare the livin daylights out of you, lol

It doesnt sound that scary but OMG, when you fall over trynna run away and they corner you in the corn so your sitting there in the foetal position screaming your lungs out and they are covering you with ther massive cape so no one can save you, Believe me, Its scary, haha. :)

They all looked so real too, 

They do the original scaring and then scope out which is the easiest to scare from your group or which makes the most noise, haha. In both cases... it was me.. :) 

I got shoved into a deserted path and every time Jeremy or Uncle James tried to save me they got pushed back and there was NO way to get to me. Im standing there screaming and dancing in a fit of terror with half the people screaming get out get out run past him! and the other half... including my mum... :/ haha.... screaming Run the other way! ie, into the DESERTED AND PITCH BLACK path... :| NO thankyou, haha. 

I finally got past him when he realised he was holding up like 3 groups. There were only about 5 and 6 in a group so it was pretty mad ass, :)

There were some actors with chainsaws and leaf blowers and syringes filled with water that they squirted at you, It was so cool! :D

To get to the next bit of the maze you had to climb through this old bus and there is a guy in the front seat...looking dead.... with a air gun or something like that, A gun that shot air and made a hell of a noise. And it was on rapid fire too so MAN DID IT make a HELL of a noise. Lol. :)

http://www.cornevil.co.nz/

haha, this isnt my photo, just googled cornevil, :)

I didnt take the camera cuz i would have dropped it in my bid to flight not fight, Haha, 

OHHHHH and the big thing about it was that they actually touch you! In aussie they dont touch the victims, The touching really gets your heart going! Oh mY!! :)

Then we left on Saturday morning and drove to Aukland ariport and flew back home... I dont want to be home! (N) had sooo much fun over seas!!

Shabang-a-bang

Arhh, there has been such a depressing tone to my blogs lately.
I have to be happy now. Or well... I AM happy now.
I have begun again, Started afresh.
With a clean slate i am commencing on a happy note.

We fly out to New Zealand tomorrow for my Uncle's wedding :)
It is going to be amazing fun. A definite way to brighten my life at this point in time,
A lot of dancing and partying is coming my way.
And i am excited.
I will very dearly miss my friends though.
My phone wont work over there.. stupid virgin roaming....
And so my only contact with my loves is FB... yay.

OHH, its my 16th Birthday on Thursday, :)
Celebrating it with my New NZ family, will be a treat. :D

FINALLY, Danielle has finished packing.
We were meant to leave at 6. Its now 8..
Jolly good work there Donk. :)

IM EXCITED :D
woo.
Ill be thinking of you all when Im in New Zealand. and Not at school, haha. :)
BYEE. :)

Not the End, A new Beginning.

Today I said goodbye to my Grannie. 
The last time she would be physically present in any of our lives. 
It was hard to whisper the final words, i didn't want to have to do it. It was too hard. 
But i did, and knowing that it is all over gives me comfort. 
Knowing that she is finally out of pain and put to rest makes me happy. 
I cried a lot today, I couldn't speak properly through the mass of tears streaming down my face. 
I looked out over the audience and saw the faces of some of the people whose lives Grannie had transformed. 
Seeing the love they all showed for my family gave me strength. 
I knew that Grannie was proud of me for having the courage to stand in front of these people and speak. To stand in front of these people and express my utmost admiration for my inspiration to life. For her. 
I sang a beautiful song with my sister. For Good from Wicked. My voice got caught in my throat when i felt a deeper meaning to the words i was singing. I put them in perspective of the day. In view of my relationship with my Grannie. 
Danielle and i held hands for the whole song. I could feel my trembling fingers held steady by her firm grasp. She kept me going. Filling in my notes where i could not. I couldn't have done it without her. <3 Family. 
My loves, Courtney and Dylan came to give me support. THANK YOU. You have no idea how much that meant to me. <3


I am going to start 2010 from here. Make a new beginning. I am going to make this the best year yet. Cherish every moment and live life to the fullest. 
Just like my Grannie did her whole life. <3
ILOVEYOU.forever.and.always. 
My inspiration. My light. 
xx

Your final lesson was how to say goodbye.
I wish you didn't have to teach it.
I wish you didn't have to die.

I love you too much for you to part this world.
I'll keep you in my heart.
With the love of a little girl.

A love so sweet.
A heart so pure.
A body so sick.
Just wanting one cure.

But for now my Grannie, just lay down and rest.
In the heart so soft of God's Heavenly nest.
Open your eyes, open your wings,
Nows your time to fly and do wondrous things.

My Inspiration, My Light.

I love you Grannie.
Forever and always you will be my inspiration to live life to the fullest and be happy forever, no matter what life throws at me.
I think your time with us is almost up.
You will always be with us in spirit and in our hearts, but our time to hold you and you hold us are all but gone.
I will very dearly miss you and everything you are and have achieved to be in your life.
You have taught me so much and i really, truly do not want to say the final goodbye.
I prayed to God the other night wishing for your pain to stop.
I said if this means you leaving us, i will live to cope.
I just didn't think he would take you this soon.
The past few months i have learnt to live without seeing you everyday or the most part of the week,
I felt like i was overcoming the obstacle of living without you in my life, getting ready for the climax of your journey.
I was very mistaken to think it would be the same when you are gone.
I knew in the back of my mind that you were still there if i needed you.
But soon you wont be and i don't know what i will do with myself.
You mean so much to me.
Words will never do this feeling justice. I just know in my heart what i mean and when you're gone you will hopefully too.

I remember you used to always say,
'There is no such word as I Can't, It is always I'll Try'.
This small phrase helped Danielle and  I do some things we never thought we could.
Your guidance and your ability to give help, was our Saviour in disguise.
The things you have taught us, the stories you have shared, the memories you have passed on.
Never, ever forgotten.

I am learning Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata on the piano in dedication to you.
This along with Fur Elise and a few others, i remember as being your favourites.
Every time i hear Moonlight Sonata i cry because i think of you and the things you have overcome in your life.
You were a very strong woman to live through the things you did.
And a very strong women to have fought this as long as you have.
You asked the doctor for sleep. The pain was too much.
Now my Grannie, my inspiration, my light.
It is time for your last sleep,
Your eternal rest.
Your end.

I love you forever and always,
Remeber that.
xx

StupidGirl

I think the school should kidnap Phylicity Ward and shave all her hair off.
Problem solved.
And then she can return to school and everyone is happy.
FOOOL, get over it you stupid girl and mother.
It is school rules, You enrolled knowing about said rule, Which means you agreed to said rule.
FOLLOW THE FRIGGIN RULE.

Grapes.

Well i just devoured a whole bag of grapes.
They were delicious, :D
I love me some grapes.

Peace.

I cant wait until i have the freedom to pack up my junk and go walkabout.
The adventures that i can see in the future with the friends just makes me want the time to go so much faster.
But, i want it to go very slow too.
The days of the past, spent not caring about our problems and our responsibilities are fading quickly.
I am growing up and my life is flying by.
I wish i could just reach up into the hands of time and rip them from the face of the ginormous clock.
Just to savour a few moments of my life.
I thought last year was an effort just to survive the 365 days,
This year is going to be just as tough.
I can tell growing up, losing my naivety and becoming a true young adult this year is unavoidable.
I live by the moto of
Every 60 seconds you spend being upset is a minute of happiness you never get back.
And i will continue swearing by that even in times of utter turmoil when i think there is no way up.

I love you my friends. You all mean the world to me. And hopefully you know it.