shit

I should probably just get used to your shit,
seeing as you're full of it.

emotions

Sometimes I think they dont care as much about me as i do for them..
It hurts, you know.

FAIL

I am not enjoying failing all my subjects except chem this year... :|
I feel like i am trying very hard... definitely not showing it... :S

copious amounts.

I have noticed that i tend to update my facebook status ALOT when i am tired....       -_-
Which is every night, thanks to my teachers enjoying drowning me in homework...

Not Told

I am so lost.
If my research has come to the right conclusion, why didn't they tell me?
Or why didn't some one else tell me?
I feel a bit left out, like come on,
We are meant to be Good friends :(
You are one of my bestest, and still i am left not being told.
I know..... Your choice right?
But i thought, being such good friends i would have, like, the right to know.

Door frame.

I hate it how i do something for someone because it is the generous and kind thing to do, but if the positions were reversed, i know indeffinitely, they would not do they same for me.
I am getting to the stage where i feel like a doormat.
I feel like i wanna say no or disagree with them on things i would normally have agreed on, but that wouldn't be me. I like to think of myself as a kind person, but the way i have been treated, Well, its pushing my limits.

Why do i have to be such a pushover? I have way too much empathy and feelings for the way other people feel. I need to get over that and for a change, make myself happy instead of trying for everybody else.

'I can not give you the formula for success, but i can give you the formula for failure- which is; try to please everybody' Herbert Bayard Swope.

Too bad for those who have been wiping their feet on me.
I am being promoted to the doorframe.
You have to walk through me to get what you want.
Not on.

hello

Haha jen, i just did this so you copied and pasted something else so you have replaced the comment from copy. That made no sense. haha, :)

but oh well. (Y)

:)

Wrinkled feet.

I tried working out my age by counting the wrinkles on my scrunched up feet.
It didn't work.
I only got 13... :)

... user and abuser.

Oh my god. 
I am getting so annoyed. 
ARGH, i don't know how to write this down... 


I hate how, in this context, they get everything they want... 

temporary time waster.

Now i am just confused.

Yes or no? 

Right or wrong?

Selfish or unselfish?

One day its EFFIN GO AWAY..... breathe..

The next its all good again. 

My mind is doing weird things to me. 

Am i so badly paranoid and overreacting that i put this friendship at risk because i finally cracked?

Sure they can be amazingly selfish and uncaring, but nobody is perfect. Everybody has their faults they can improve on. They aren't going to change anytime soon but i can always try to help. 

Friends love their friends in every aspect, including their faults. 

An amazing child said this to me today, but in context with their own troubles. 

I believe it applies to my problem as well. 

Sometimes i have to wonder though, will this friendship last? 

Sometimes i don't think THEY believe so. Its just a temporary time waster while they have nothing better to do with their social life...

I hope it does.

Lilac trees.

Lilac trees are blooming in the corner by the gate.
Mammies at her little cabin door.
Curly headed pikkininies coming home so late.
Crying 'cuz his little heart is sore.
All the children romping home from school at night or noon.
None of them with him would ever play.
So Mammy in her lap sat that weeping little chap.
And said in her kind old way.

Now honey you stay in your own backyard
Don't mind what those white childs do.
'Cuz what do you suppose they're a gonna give
A black little coon like you.
So stay on this side of the high board fence
And honey don't cry so hard.
Go out and play as much as you like.
But stay in your own backyard.

>:|

Ohk, they are starting to piss me off.
Its amazing how feelings change so suddenly.
I don't know what brought this on but i really have had enough.
I am sick of being treated like shit.
They're a selfish child who should learn how to be polite and kind.
It would do them the world of good.

I have had it.